I must say He has shown me a lot these past couple weeks. First He has taught me to just get totally lost in His glory and worship when things around me seem so shaky and crazy. Let's just say I am in some huge transitions... in 31 days I will be flying off to Africa for my first mission trip out of the country, at the end of August I will be doing full time work and full time school to get my Bachelor's in Early Childhood, about a week ago a beautiful teacher I worked with my first couple years at the preschool passed away, God helped me to finally let go of the church I've clung onto all my life and just be open to wherever He leads me, my own brain was feeling like doubts and darts were trying to fling in, He has for an undetermined amount of time pulled me away from the prayer/worship group I helped lead the past couple years, and that's just to name a few. But God in His grace and wisdom has reminded me that I have died and I am hidden with Him in Christ. (Colossians 3:3) I truly am on the other side of the cross and in the happily ever after part. And in Him I can rest and be at peace and even enjoy storms as He reveals to me how His grace has already won and covered everything. I am already living in the reality of heaven.
It has been interesting too because God has been so quiet these past couple weeks. Normally He is so talkative to me, but lately I know He is there yet He is just being so quiet and mysterious. A friend of mine told me a beautiful quote though that was definitely Jesus. He asks me,"You know the verse that says be still and know that I am God." "Yes" I respond. He replys, "Well... maybe God is being still and knowing you." Then it dawned on me again how much I could just love on God. So I just began worshiping Him with my mandolin and keyboard (and I am in the physical a very simple, new, and quite unskilled musician) and just trusting Him and continuing to talk to Him, enjoy His people, etc. Basically I was just being myself knowing I was loving Him and worshiping Him.
Well then yesterday I am reading Jesus' prayer (John 17) and Holy Spirit reminded me that Jesus' prayers have already been answered. On the cross Jesus fulfilled His own prayer. And because of that we please/glorify the Father as much as Jesus does and we share in the unity of Father and Son. Thereby we do get totally intoxicated with Jesus and because of that He in turn manifests His salvation through us and gets totally intoxicated with our love. We literally get lost in one another's love and He is the source of this through what He has done for us on the cross in killing us and then turning us into little Jesus's.
So have you ever seen those love movies (especially princess' ones) where the man is just watching the girl be herself and you can tell he is totally in love with her and quite intoxicated with her? Well in a much huger, grandeur sense that is how God views us as we actually believe we are His holy bride in Christ and just be ourselves before Him. It's quite simple... He made us, we messed up, He loved us and won us by making us perfect through Christ's death, we believe Him, and then we love Him and enjoy His love... then of course fruit just naturally happens and we shine Salvation in the world without even trying to.
And just a couple hours ago Jesus reminded me of all this. He showed me in His silence He was actually sitting back and just enjoying me and actually making His own special book of our Love story- His salvation in me. I could not help but just worship Him and He just loved me so. He is my Master, my Lover, my King. I cannot help but pour what He has accomplished in me. I must worship Him and glorify Him by just being me. Praise Jesus that He made me a holy offering for Himself and I can minister to His heart.
Enjoy loving Jesus. You are His perfect one. He only sees a unique reflection of Jesus when He looks at you. He has intoxicated you and therefore you intoxicate Him. And remember if God seems quiet just remember He adores you, He's not mad at you, and go ahead and praise Him and let Him totally enjoy the joy set before Him that He endured the cross... you. God bless you. :)
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